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Thursday, June 30, 2011

Happy Bandiversary to ME!!!

One year ago today I was lying on the sofa, probably watching TV and nursing my wounds. :) One year ago today I was banded and it's something I have absolutely NO regrets on!!!!

A year later, I'm down 76.5lbs and I've lost a ton of inches!!! It's just amazing how things have changed in just one short year!!!

My Stats (roughly since I'm not very good at measuring!)









Ring Size:

Here are some things that I'm proud of:

  • I went from a size 24/26 in Womens to a size 14/16 in MISSES!!

  • My feet have gone from a 7.5/8W to a size 6.5-7 regular!

  • I went from a 46D bra to a 38C (not sure how I feel about this one! I'm starting a "New Boobs for T" fundraiser. You're all welcome to contribute!)

  • I can sleep on my stomach comfortably and not wake up with my back killing me.

  • I can sleep all night without tossing and turning because I can't get comfortable.

  • I'm UNDER 200lbs!!!!

  • I can get down on the floor with my kids and get up without feeling like my knees are going to pop off.

  • I can paint my own piggy toes without needing a defibrulator(sp?) afterwards.

  • I can go more than 5 minutes on my elliptical!

  • I can easily climb stairs without needing an oxygen mask when I'm through.

  • When I see pics of my profile, I don't believe it's me.

  • I can curl up on the couch and REALLY curl up in a ball instead of a big lump!

  • I haven't had a soda in over a year and I survived.

  • I can now say 'no thanks' to donuts and cinnamon rolls (or at least to the WHOLE thing!)

  • I'm under 200lbs!!!

  • I can go to a restaurant and know I'm not the biggest person in there.

  • I'm 36yrs old and I still get looks from men and it's WONDERFUL.

  • Relations with the DH is amazing. ;)

  • I'm under 200lbs!!!!!!!!!! :)

I'm sorry, I will need to post the before and recent pics later! They good collage I made is at the office. :( Sorry guys!

I hope you're well and loving life. I'm still dealing with dialated pouch, but I'm back on the wagon. I got a 2cc fill a few weeks ago, so I'm heading in the right direction again.

Although my journey hasn't been smooth sailing 100% of the time, and I've recently encountered some bumps in the road- I would change my experience with the band for anything. I honestly think my days would be numbered as I was on the fast track to 300lbs. Being only 5'1" (I always thought I was 5'2", so you might notice how I flunctuate in height on here! haha), it wouldn't have been pretty or fun at all.

If anyone stumbles upon this blog because you're considering the surgery, I can't say it enough. GO FOR IT!!!! It will change your life for the better!!!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I suck

189. That's what the scale said this morning. Even though I won't record it until next Friday, the fact of the matter is I've gained three pounds from last week. It sucks. What sucks even more is that now that I have this freedom, I'm taking advantage of it.

Despite my daily walking/eliptical efforts, I'm still gaining and eating. It's awful. I've suddenly forgotten every band rule there ever was:
Small bites? Not hardly.
Chewing my food to mush? Ya right.
Not drinking & eating at the same time? Uh nope.
Stopping when I feel full? What's this 'full' word you speak of?

The few behaviors I'm continuing to do well is exercising & not drinking soda.

See what I mean though? I'm a mess. I feel like such a failure. It's almost my bandiversary and I wanted to be down 100lbs, but now I'll be lucky to be down 70 at the rate I'm going. (Not that 70lbs isn't something to balk at- but still, when the scale is moving in the opposite direction, it still sucks big hairy balls.)

I need to go back to see DK on Friday and I pray that I get some restriction back. It's obvious I need it. Hell, if I could have done it by myself, I wouldn't have needed the surgery in the first place. I can't help feeling like I'm going to undo everything I've accomplished so far and that scares the piss out of me.

I need help.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

So now that I'm back...

I must share with you all the fun happenings from planet T.

First off, I'm out of saline. No restriction whatsoever. :(. For the last two weeks I've been having major reflux/ indigestion. Although my original visit with DK wasn't scheduled til this Fri, I knew I couldn't wait that long. I went in last Fri and they found that my pouch had dilated and I was on the verge of a band slip. HOLY SHEEP. Shocking. Thankfully I didn't wait until this week. Anyway, so they removed everything from my band, checked me under the fluoroscope and thank gawd my band went back to where it belongs. I go in in two weeks to check it out. I probably won't get a fill though. :(

I'm scared. It's shocking how quickly we revert to our old ways when given the chance. I said wasnt going to go all stupid and gain back my weight, but what did my dumbass do last night? Bacon cheeseburger & fries for dinner. :(. It sucked too, but I ate it anyway. Even though I went walking last night, as I've been doing every other day, I still feel like crap physically. What's worse is the guilt. I feel horrible. Like I gained 80lbs overnight. Uggh.

So that's that. I'm going to do better. I want to show DK that I'm not a complete failure and I can at least maintain my weight during this time. I just got a bunch of new clothes for my bday and I'll be damned if they're not going to fit in a month!!!!

Here's a pic of moi that i took on Monday. I'm at 185.5 this am (up from 184 yesterday. Dammit)

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I'm not dead!

Having a heck of a time trying to post on the site. Now I'm on my phone! Let's see if this works!

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