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Monday, July 16, 2012

Band Limbo

Just wanted to let you all know I'm still here, with an unfilled band.

Knowing I can eat whatever, whenever is very very tempting. I'm trying not to go buck wild with my new found freedom, but it's difficult.

This morning, I was at 175.5. Not devastating, but not in the 160s either. Oh well.

On a happy note, I've been busting my ass nightly doing the Jillian 30 Day Shred video again. 30 days straight. No breaks. Tonight will be day 18 (I think!). My hubby said I'm looking smaller and more toned. Yae!!! I'm trying not to gain this weight back. Even if it's 500^ out, I'm still doing something every day. For now, it's the shred. After I'm done, I'm going to use our Kinect, or our dust-collecting elliptical. :). Just SOMETHING!!!

Thanks for the comment, you know who you are. :). I have come a long way and I'm going to try like hell not to go back to where I was. I like being this size. Sure, I could be smaller, but the emphasis now has shifted. It's gone from trying to lose, to now just trying to maintain.

Maintain. That is my new favorite word. Well, that's it for now. I have my EGD on the 26th. Then I meet with DK on 8/1. Then I learn the fate of my band.

Until then, I hope you're all fabulous!

Love, T

Monday, July 2, 2012

It could always be worse

Sometimes when we think our lives are sucking & bad things are happening to us, you learn something and it quickly changes your outlook.

Here I am whining about needing my band removed and fearful that I'm going to gain my weight back and a friend confides in me that she has cancer & needs a full hysterectomy at the age of 36.

This is the first time that someone I know, personally and in the present tense, has uttered those words to me.

It's just heartbreaking. Shocking.

So, I'm not a huge religious freak or anything, but in the last few years, I'm noticing His work affecting my life. I'm sorry that it's taken my friend's cancer diagnosis to open my eyes to all the wonderful blessings I have in my life and I'm thankful.

Very, very thankful.

There is a reason this is happening and I will try to see the goodness that will come from it, instead of focusing on the negative outcome that COULD happen.

I'm hoping & praying for my friend's complete recovery, and I know her family, friends, and her faith will get her through this .

Ps- I've started the 30 Day shred again. Today I completed day 4. YIPPY! LOL

Love, T